I’m getting married tomorrow.

It’s both amazing and strange how one can go through all the decisions and events leading up to this occasion and still feel like it is happening to someone else. To wake up this morning and look over at the girl I’m going to marry and see her cute smile in the morning sunlight…now it feels like its happening to me. Finally. And I am so happy about it!

It’s also amazing how something of your own creation can somehow wind up taking over your life, hijacking it from under your nose. As excited as we are, we will both be thankful when we get our lives back. I’m still trying to shake this ‘Its for somebody else’ feeling, probably coming for the feeling of too much attention. I’m not used to that much of it! I’m not used to being the center of attention. Up until today, I felt like we were planning for someone else’s wedding, shopping for other people’s presents, attending other peoples parties. It’s not until the rehearsal diner that it really kicked in that this is all for us.

During the rehearsal, I was kinda confused by all the instructions until I saw Alex walking down the aisle and everything just started to make sense. I couldn’t help but smile knowing that as pretty as she looked today, she will look incredible tomorrow. Today was great, so fun to see everyone and have amazing laughs. After saying goodnight to Alex we all went to the Cedar Knoll and sat eight to a two person jacuzzi, drinking beer and champagne, waiting for our parents to leave so we wouldn’t get in trouble. We made so much noise the neighbours started banging on our door and the inn threatened to call the cops…Made us feel like high school kids again.

I feel so lucky to have the friends and family that I do, and for my life being the way it is. I have every reason in the world to be happy right now. And I am.

I guess it’s fitting that I spend my last night as unmarried man falling asleep in the bed beside Steve. Sleep now. Rise early.